I wish

I could blog about my dreams. But I forget them too quick. But they are rather vivid. And parts stick with me a lot of the day. I get night terrors 2 times a week at least.

Anyway, today was a beautiful day. I love the spring. It's close, but still far away. But today reminds me of why I love it. Its a time to be happy - it gets warmed, things grow, and people are just nicer I think.

It brings me back to the old days when I used to be a very unhappy teenager and the Spring is what saved me each year. I would love to go more into detail but I think I am going to keep those thoughts as private as I could.

That brings me to my next thing - Valentines Day is just around the corner. Last year I drank alone, or with a couple friends. The year before I had a valentine, and years before that I did as well. Again this year I don't have one. I also am not going to be on the Island. I think that being away with TC will keep my mind off it, for the most part. Minus the whole driving in the van and thinking about things as we drive thing. But yeah.

That is right around the corner. Facebook is interesting - a lot of relationships ending so close to the holiday. I think I won't be the only one in the boat this year.