I don't want to grow up...

So as the semester comes to a close, I have seen some of my closest friends freak out over some classes as they get ready to graduate this year. I freaked out about classes too, but I will not be joining them down at the ceremony.

It's starting to hit that I am not graduating this year - its a known fact, not a surprise. But many of my friends I graduated high school with four years ago are completing college. They get to enter the real world. Granted, I am not ready for the "real world" - whatever that may be for me. I know that my future looks good and bad at the same time. I will be pursuing something that is so underground and uncertain I probably will have problems at some point with finding a job, but so will everyone.

But it comes with this change as these friends graduate that people change. A lot of things have changed in the past years. Friends, bands, girls, guys, even my likes and dislikes in music. I took some time the other day to look at a bunch of my Facebook photos from the beginning of being tagged until now. And that is just the beginning, I have thousands more pictures on my computer.

It's interesting to see where I have come from, but the problem is I don't know where I am going.

I have been all over the place, trying to be several different places at once. That doesn't work anymore. It's time to settle down. But I haven't found anything I am comfortable with. It's something I have been missing for a long time. And I have searched high and low but have yet to find something that feels right.

I think this summer will have an interesting effect on me. It will, in a way, keep my mind off things. But that van freetime will certainly take its toll.

But regardless, I will keep searching.

Once again..a gap

First of all keep in mind everytime you see a "P" you must understand I have to click the button twice because that key isnt working for me apparently. Jerk.

Anyway, so Bamboozle was amazing. Thanks to everyone that came. I worked a bunch on the day they played and I didn't mind. I got to meet a lot of awesome people. I am so stoked for the summer tour. I think that its gonna be rad and I may have done a good job booking most of it. I have 12 more full dates to finish on their first run. I'm planning on finishing that this week.
If you know anyone in those areas, please tell them to come out so I could sleep on their floor.
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Last week was the LAST week of school classes. Now I am done. All my final projects were in last week. I dont have anything else to do until end of August. I am pretty pumped about that. I am home in Levittown for this week but then I gotta go back for RA duties on Friday during the day and a lot more next week. Then I will officially be done. So awesome.

I can't wait to see a bunch of my friends from here once they get back from their respective colleges. I am pumped for the summer. Only thing I always feel torn because I leave a lot behind here. But I think the road is where I am meant to be.

Oh and BTW I am pumped for Blink announcing a tour this week :-x.
I have to go. Somewhere. Wherever it is.

Ok I love you buhbye.